Saturday, 22 September 2012

REFLECTIONS ON LONELINESS


He wandered lonely on the road
With nothing to do and no one to talk to
Unemployment and loneliness had made him bored
When he heard a voice say “Do you want to?”

He turned behind to see a young not so innocent girl
With painted face, sensuous lips and hardened eyes
Her saree like a flag over her shoulders did furl,
And her eyes glittered just as brilliant as ice.

With nothing to do; desolate and with no one to talk to
His mind did stray from silence to taking her away
For he just wanted to be with someone whom he could talk to
And so he asked her politely if with him she could stay

She said it would cost him a thousand bucks an hour
He agreed and said, “That’s O.K. With me it is fine”
For he felt it would be better than going on a lonely tour.
She wanted the bread upfront and not down the line.

He found her reasoning fair and parted with ten big ones
She grabbed them from his hand and asked where?
He asked her to share a drink to break the ice, at once
She agreed and they headed for a bar somewhere

She ordered vodka while he had his whiskey
They completed a couple and she loosened her tongue
She revealed the truth behind her mystery
While he breathed in companionship to which he clung

The hour passed quickly and the lady wanted her fee,
For the second hour of happiness and pleasure.
He fished out another thousand as if it were free,
She grabbed the notes as if she had no leisure.

“What next?” she replied, when he offered another drink
“Aren’t you interested in taking my body?” she asked
“You’ve paid for it”, she said as another round did sink
I’m not interested in sex”, he said and just talked

At the end of the second hour the professional woman got up
He asked her to sit and desperately offered her another thou
She looked at him scornfully as she would a dirty mongrel pup
You know you are just a put on, she said, just another pseudo

As she walked away, he sat wondering if he did deserve such scorn
A harlot who copulated everyday with multiple partners, faking many an orgasm
Just a cheap whore at that had the temerity to call him a put on
While all he wanted was freedom from loneliness which engulfed him like a deep chasm.

MY IGNORANCE


Every day on my way to work
I used to come across her.
In fact, I used to hide and lurk
waiting just for a glimpse of her.
She was a mere school student
while I an old lecher it seemed,
observing her at a distance was prudent
for I didn’t want to be a pervert, deemed

I admired her classic face
with lively eyes so expressive
as she walked at a leisurely pace
surrounded by friends so oppressive.
They held her hand and clung to her;
they wouldn’t let her go,
while she so stately walked there
making her friends look just so

One day I observed her all alone
standing at a street corner
unmoving as if carved from stone.
I then casually behind did wander.
Hearing my footsteps she turned behind
“Excuse me”, she said in a voice so sweet
“Could you help me, if you don’t mind,
I need help to cross the street”

I gazed deep upon her lovely face
Wondering why she needed help from me
Her expressive eyes did blankly gaze
At me without any fear or glee
With posture so serene and proud
“Could you hold my hand, if you don’t mind
And help me across the bustling road
For you see I can’t see and I’m just  blind”

I realised it was only me
who always couldn’t see
It was not she who was blind
But my mind which had been blind.


SHAME


I met a holy man who roamed the streets without any garments of any kind outside
He did not appear to be afflicted by shame or fear nor any kind of material desire
The people who came across him scampered away from him out of their shame inside
While he did not in the least bit seem bothered by their disgust or hypocritical ire

I followed him around town to know more about him and the exact state of his mind
He appeared oblivious to his surroundings as well as me; he really seemed not to care
Was he an enlightened one in communion with the divine or one with fevered mind?
I thought of talking to him but he kept talking to himself so that, I did not really dare

The holy man seemed to realise what I wanted and that I wished to communicate
Without my having communicated the same to him he could understand and beckoned me
I approached him full of fear and trepidation so much so that I felt the urge to defecate
But he soon made me feel at ease and expressed that he was harmless as if to assure me

I asked if he felt ashamed of being nude or if he felt afraid that people would stone him
He looked at me as if I was some weirdo and then gently explained to me as if I were a child.
“I am ashamed only of lust, perversion, corruption and sin; not that which was given by him
I am only afraid of getting caught in the mire of the desires of the mind, which can make me wild”

“Man has been fooled by his senses”, he continued. “Fooled into believing all illusions
Fearing that which he should not while being unafraid of that which he should fear.
Man has been fooled by his senses, he continued. Fooled into believing all delusions
Remaining unashamed of his corruption and vice while being ashamed of his body so dear”

“I am not ashamed of nudity but would be ashamed if I were ever to cheat or betray someone
I am not afraid of anyone but would be afraid of God and afraid of entering into sinful ways.
I am only afraid of my Ego getting the better of me and ashamed when it dominates all action done
I am only ashamed of being egoistic and being full of my self to worry about what anybody says”

I asked him why he had taken it upon himself to remove and throw his clothes to become nude
He said he had dome this as a means to renounce himself of all his desires and overcome his ego
I asked him if I too needed to practice this to remove my own ego and become a real cool dude
He replied that there was no need as long as I was not afraid of sin and not ashamed to be so.

I thanked him for his thoughts so pure and holy; I just walked away in a daze into the haze
My ego shattered and my mind so vacant; I meandered through life completely broken
The more I really understood what he meant; the more life appeared to me as a maze
The more I really understood his explanation; the more my defenses appeared a mere token

We wear our shame in which we take pride; in the form of designer clothes
For our physical nakedness leads to foul, uncomfortable and wicked thoughts
And the human form has become the fount of all that the divine Lord God loathes
Including carnal desires & material desires which seep from insecure minds with doubts

We have lost the sense of fear for that which we really ought to be afraid off and fear
We have lost the sense of shame for that which we really ought to be ashamed off and avoid
We fear the dark but are not afraid of doing wrong; for we really don’t care
We are ashamed of walking naked but to corruption and vile lust we fall for the lure